Hi all,
When I was little kid I was so happy & free. Of course I would have bad days and the people around me were not always happy. I was abused sexually, mentally, physically, and emotionally by family members. Like many people I experienced depression, being ostracized, eating disorders, and low self-esteem.
I cared so much about everything and everyone's opinion of me that I became a robot. A very angry, very fearful robot who tried to conform to be accepted and loved.
Unfortunately, about a year ago a person who really loved me for me and wanted the best for me exited my life. I actually pushed them out way before they left. I became fearful and started thinking, "what if he finds another girl?" or "I'm not pretty or happy enough for him" etc. etc.
All that worry and negative thinking became a self-fulfilling prophesy. Then I decided my life was so screwed up and "over" it was time to end it. So I tried to end it and I wound up in a hospital for a week. I got out and it wasn't easier, but it was different.
It took months of hard-work and introspection to really find what made me "me" again. By February of this year I felt a way I hadn't felt in years. I felt alive and free :)!
How? I realized that no matter what I do in this life someday I will die. That used to scare me. But not anymore. We all die. Every single living creature passes away. So why spend your life, TODAY, worrying about whether people like you, being popular, being perceived a certain way, or anything that will also fade away?
Why not spend it doing what makes you happy, laughing, pushing forward, working toward completing goals, dreaming, loving others, loving yourself, laughing, being a human being?
Anything you want to do in your life that makes you feel alive, do it. Don't worry what others are thinking or saying because they too only have a short amount of time on this Earth. Don't be fooled into thinking you must live one way to find happiness and be accepted.
Just imagine if you were to die this afternoon, would you be content with your morning? Think of life as a continuous day and when the night, which it will come, comes, how did you spend your day?
Make it a good day. IT IS YOUR DAY TODAY.
I give a fuck, just in a different way that is positive for my health and happiness.
Someday I will die, but today I live. You can, too :).
thanks to redditor: Imherenoww
When I was little kid I was so happy & free. Of course I would have bad days and the people around me were not always happy. I was abused sexually, mentally, physically, and emotionally by family members. Like many people I experienced depression, being ostracized, eating disorders, and low self-esteem.
I cared so much about everything and everyone's opinion of me that I became a robot. A very angry, very fearful robot who tried to conform to be accepted and loved.
Unfortunately, about a year ago a person who really loved me for me and wanted the best for me exited my life. I actually pushed them out way before they left. I became fearful and started thinking, "what if he finds another girl?" or "I'm not pretty or happy enough for him" etc. etc.
All that worry and negative thinking became a self-fulfilling prophesy. Then I decided my life was so screwed up and "over" it was time to end it. So I tried to end it and I wound up in a hospital for a week. I got out and it wasn't easier, but it was different.
It took months of hard-work and introspection to really find what made me "me" again. By February of this year I felt a way I hadn't felt in years. I felt alive and free :)!
How? I realized that no matter what I do in this life someday I will die. That used to scare me. But not anymore. We all die. Every single living creature passes away. So why spend your life, TODAY, worrying about whether people like you, being popular, being perceived a certain way, or anything that will also fade away?
Why not spend it doing what makes you happy, laughing, pushing forward, working toward completing goals, dreaming, loving others, loving yourself, laughing, being a human being?
Anything you want to do in your life that makes you feel alive, do it. Don't worry what others are thinking or saying because they too only have a short amount of time on this Earth. Don't be fooled into thinking you must live one way to find happiness and be accepted.
Just imagine if you were to die this afternoon, would you be content with your morning? Think of life as a continuous day and when the night, which it will come, comes, how did you spend your day?
Make it a good day. IT IS YOUR DAY TODAY.
When it comes to overcoming challenges in life (like financial setbacks, break-ups, not having many friends, family issues, health concerns) realize these are also apart of life. And they too shall pass. Remember you are not bound to anyone, any job, any person, or any object. You are a traveler and are here to experience the experience.
And be kind to yourself. You are always growing and changing. Be kind to others because they are as well. As much as life is beautiful, there is much absurdity and confusion that we humans create by falsely believing what society or other people have told us.Say this out loud with a smile: No one really knows what they're doing. They just know they want to live.
I still care about people, I have dreams and goals, I feel pain and happiness, and I want to do many things in my life. But I know anything and everything I want I can go after or have as long as I believe in myself. Because there is truly nothing in this world stopping me, only me if I make that choice to have a defeatist mindset or to "give a fuck".I give a fuck, just in a different way that is positive for my health and happiness.
Someday I will die, but today I live. You can, too :).
thanks to redditor: Imherenoww
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