Hey hi, Its my bday and I feel like the shittiest person in the whole world. I really don't know why I am feel so awful. This pitiful in my stomach is making me feel depressed. It may be because after 23 year (since my birth) this is the first time I am not with my family celebrating my bday. I always wanted it to be different and now it is, but I am not able to make full use of it. I think smoking some weed will make it better. Only if my frnd is able so score some, which I hope he does. I don't know why I am continuously staring towards my mobile phone, it seems like I am waiting for someone to call me and say happy birthday :-o. I need to get out of this place and go out. I don't know why but I feel like I am love deprived, and now this being "said" I don't feel bad at all, or for the matter, love deprived. I really don't give a shit if someone call me. This feeling in my stomach will go off once I hit the road. I love you, will miss u '...